So Called Sleep Training{baby blog}

I am not completely calling it quits but I am changing up my game. For whatever reason fueled by my deep down attachment,abandonment type issues-I just cant walk out of a room while a baby is crying for comfort. period. I tried it briefly once with Jacob and I couldn't do it and he turned out just fine. I tried it for a week with Max and it was a week too long. When going to war one must identify the cause and the ideal result. For this war, I want Max to like his crib. Thats it. I don't necessarily want him to be on a strict schedule because that would mean that for the next few years we would strict schedule and strict schedules and our lifestyles just dont mesh. I don't mind nursing him until he is drowsy and then putting him into a crib with a milk drunk half smile. I do mind putting a wide awake baby into his bed that looks at me and screams.
We have had advise from everybody and as much as I appreciate all of it, I am going to do what I feel comfortable doing and that is nursing until drowsy and then putting him in the crib. If he wakes up and tries to stand up(which a few nights ago he did eighty eight times), I gently put him on his pillow and tell him its night night time. Tonight I stood next to his crib for about 45 minutes and the only time he screamed was when I left the room to get Jacob ready for bed. Which was tough but better than a constant scream for 45 minutes.
This week is better than last because he willingly went into his crib and only got upset when I had  to leave the room. At this stage with Jacob,I remember standing by his crib and then slowly backing out of the room until he was comfortable which only took two weeks. Wish me luck.